Step 1: Wait for a new situation and birth mother to present our profile.
Step 2: After being notified of a situation, wait on pins and needles to hear if we were chosen. (This means jumping every time my phone makes a noise for both email and phone calls.)
Step 3: If the answer is "Another family was chosen", return to Step 1.
So far, I haven't had issues with the rejection part because I know that we will be matched with the baby that is meant for us. The hard part is just waiting to be matched and knowing that an end is in sight. I hate not being able to do something to speed this process along. I am not by nature a patient person...
After I had my "mini melt-down", I came back to reality and put things into proper perspective. God is in control; I am not. Because of that truth, we wait.
Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." NIV
I wanted to post a link to the following blog post of another adoptive mother. It was encouraging to me and might give a little insight to the waiting phase of adoption:
Not Succumbing to Bitterness While Waiting to Adopt
On a side note: I am a normal female and have shed tears over miscarriages and adoption. However, this is the first crying episode over the current waiting process. By no means, was this my first moment of tears related to adoption. I wanted to clarify, because tears do happen. Just ask my husband! I detest crying in front of people, so I save my blubbering for him, poor guy. I told him I was proud of myself that I went so long without a melt-down. Adoption really is a roller coaster of sorrow and joy mixed with a hearty dose of hurry up and wait. Although it has been difficult at times, this process is well worth it. I know the end result is joy. I also know that God is teaching me things (patience being one) that I need to learn.