The reality is that life rarely turns out how you think it will... and that is ok. We haven't truly lost our open adoption because we have contact with other biological family for Levi. Our open adoption has just changed. It isn't what I dreamed of, and I grieve that dream. Despite that loss, I know that my God has another story for my family. I am thankful that God does and allows things in my life that aren't necessarily what I want. If I had everything I wanted, my life would look very different. I am thankful that I didn't marry the first guy I liked. Jarred is a much better fit for me, and I couldn't imagine being married to anyone else. I have an amazing husband! I am thankful that I didn't have a boyfriend after I graduated college like I planned to have. I was able to travel the United States and parts of Europe during that single time. I learned more about who I was and who I wanted to be. I am grateful that Jarred and I didn't have children the way we planned. If we had a biological child before I turned 30 years old like I wanted, then we probably wouldn't have Levi. And as much as it hurts to not experience pregnancy, I want Levi more than I want my original dream. So I have to trust that God is going to give me something better than what I dreamed of. He always has, why would he do something different now?
On that note of getting something better than what you dream about, how about some adorable pictures of the little boy who is way better than my original plan! I can't imagine life without him :-)